Today I’m starting to see myself getting burned out and defeated. My body is showing the struggle and battle of physical living. I know what’s happening, I know I am killing myself. I’m losing faith in my ability to survive, much less win the battle. My demising strength is weakling because I’ve been taught to fight what I see rather to listen to what I know. I’m looking outward, rather than turning within to God’s given iteration.
I can see very clearly in others what I cannot see in myself. I can see defects and faults, I can see very clearly what others need to do, I can see potential in others, and I want to help them live up to their God giving gifts. I can see in others, what I can’t see in myself.
How can I prove to myself- I’m right, when I know I’m wrong? How can I be good if I acknowledge the bad things about myself? Good & Bad, Right and Wrong are predetermine judgments placed into my head by past experiences, and recurring thought patterns.
Until I am willing to acknowledge my true self- I’m powerless to change. The universe will send people and situations into my life to show me who I am and what I think, though for providing me with an opportunity to choose people who will show me the way. I must accept what I see- if it quarks and walks like a duck, then it must be a damn duck.
What I can learn and put into action is my ability to choose. It’s my choice. If what I see is not something I like or want in my life, then I need to get to STEPPIN’. I will not make excuses; I will not entertain, change or fix what I see. I will see it, accept it, then reject it and haul ass as fast as my 8.5 feet will take me.
Artwork by Alease Michelle: Titled "Ms. Mary" part of the Phenomenal Woman Series.
Peace & More Love,

